我的眼睛看世界

2012年05月24日

这是一个很少有故人来看的地方,所以写写

Filed under: 生活 — gcd0318 @ 03:27

预先打个招呼:我知道有两位经常来这里看帖子的朋友,我想请各位有个思想准备,因为我有个预感,这帖将会走上一条不符合我主流文风的路子,因为这些事也确实超出了我的经验范围和理解能力
我曾在老帖里多次提起过,中国有个主文的传统非常强大,从文字到文学再到文化,这条主线贯穿整个主流知识界的发展史,以至于,强大到,中国人对文字有种莫名其妙的崇拜,觉得文字乃至于所有的符号都可以是神秘的。这种崇拜当然会有很多表现,比如普通的表现为文章千古是,文艺的表现为书法艺术,至于第三种,则是相信符号可以有超自然的能力,比如某种叫做卦象的文字可以预测未来,某种叫做符的文字可以避邪治病。我的偶像龚云起先生在文化符号学里有更深刻的讨论和解释。后学才疏,这个问题自然也不是我能置喙的领域了
好吧其实,这些本来也并不是我想说的,我要说的是,我发现我的文字也有某种超自然的能力,可以取人的性命
这个发现真真的吓到了我
从我真正开始以手追心的写下第一篇文章的时候起,凡是我认真写过,发自内心赞美过怀念过的人,无一不是横死,而我又从没意识到过这个现实存在的规律,总会因为一时的心血来潮,就想要为谁写点什么,对我喜欢的欣赏的崇拜的人,一旦让我荡胸生层云,我就想要发自内心的去赞美去怀念
直到昨天晚上的那场别开生面的叙旧,我和几位故人以吵架为形式,以绝交为结果的回顾了过往的很多经历之后,突然我意识到了这个问题,于是我认真的回忆了几位惨遭不测的朋友,也翻看了曾经留下的文字,这才惊恐的发现,所有死于非命的朋友,都被我的文章赞美过,而我赞美过的每一位朋友,也都是这样的命运。一次是偶然,两次是巧合,那么六次呢?我不知道该怎么解释这个现象,我只能说,我的文字里有鬼
心灰意冷意识模糊的,我终于想到了该怎么做——我打通了许悦的电话,我跟她说,她依旧是标志性的懂我,幽幽的说:君日后当为铭诔第一高手,何不赞我一文试观之——和我预料的一般不二
无奈在这之前,我就许了潇洒哥一个愿,要为他写一篇潇洒如此,现在看来也只得放下,且把前半篇扔在这,我的文章没有写完,潇洒哥也命不当绝
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附:潇洒如此
余少年负笈,尝得书伴,曾序年齿,以兄事之,而众人皆称潇洒哥。其人风流倜傥,卓尔不群,故有此雅号。后天各一方,书信渐疏。经年而有音信,方知潇洒哥已为人夫矣。取照片一观,不由惊诧,虽时光流转,而岁月无痕,一望潇洒哥玄衣端容,绰约依旧,携素衫美妇,清丽脱俗,翩翩然若神仙眷侣,羡煞旁人。年余又闻潇洒哥喜获贵子,彼时至今已有数载。前时友人造访,谈及故人近况,或曰潇洒哥已非临风之玉树久矣,斯人为生活所累,大腹便便,颇有老朽今日风采。因而笑曰:果然潇洒不敌岁月。遂拨通电话,方知潇洒哥本性不改,纵横谈说,臧否捭阖,依旧昔日风神,特为是文,以明潇洒典范。试观之,或博一笑耳
我自幼跟随家父读书,童蒙时代便极仰慕古之名士风流,梦想有朝一日自己也是一般模样。后来读书日多,见闻日广,发觉时过境迁,当下早已不是那个能喝酒会骂街读过离骚就算是名士的时代了,身为名士,除了襟怀抱负,才华学问,而且因为那般人物早已不属于这个时代,所以还要耐得寂寞,受得冷眼,不由得心下打起了退堂鼓——好难啊
直到遇到了潇洒哥
人之潇洒,实乃骨子里透出来的一股子精气神,这是我在认识了潇洒哥之后才意识到的。而在我认识潇洒哥之前,我心里关于潇洒的印象,大半是来自李白的那种假潇洒,心中总是想着,这也怪不得谪仙人,天下又有谁能够做得到李白所描述的那般潇洒呢?那除非是天下第一潇洒之人
是的,我一直认为谪仙李白的这种潇洒是假的,是装出来的,是仅仅体现在嘴头上的。关于太白其人,自然是不必多说的了,他早已成为了华夏文明的一个符号,是我们共同记忆的一部分,中国人很少有不知道李太白的。一般人对李白的印象,大概也就是潇洒浪漫,诗风飘逸,文辞瑰丽,想象丰富,所以谈潇洒而错过了李白,总是说不过去的
但是我对李白,却是一直的颇不以为然,我总觉得他的潇洒其实是装出来的,实际上他根本不潇洒,或者说,他的潇洒,只是体现在嘴头上,而不是发自内心里
李白一生郁郁不得志,他的理想恐怕是要做宰相,为万世开太平,但是皇帝始终不给他这样的机会,这其中也许是李白的悲剧,但恐怕却是当时社会的福气,更是中国文学史的大幸,此事老朽在旧文里说过许多,不再赘述。我少年时候读李白,也觉得其人仙风傲骨,走马仗剑,诗酒江湖,眼馋得紧,但随着阅历增长,读书日多,才觉得,李白的句子,想必都要反过来理解,才是他的心里话。他不自信,所以才说“天生我才必有用”,他想要做官,所以才宣称“天子呼来不上船”,他时刻忘不了建功立业,所以才要在奇美的风光前提醒自己“安能摧眉折腰事权贵”,这一切都是因为李白太想从政而又没有机会,而如此骄傲的性格,既然孜孜以求却求之不得,自然难免要担心被人取笑,因此只好对外说,吾非不能也,吾实不为也——没错,这就是李白,颇有些柏林对康德的嘲笑,身在牢笼,于是自称不需要自由。暂且不说柏林的这个嘲笑是不是到位,但是这句话拿来说李白,倒是很到位的
所以说,李白其实是不潇洒的,但是奈何其人名声太盛,总是不好不提一句,故有以上
但是,不看假的,就不认识真的,不看李白,就不认识潇洒哥。潇洒哥的潇洒,则是真潇洒,发自肺腑,源于内心
人的生命都是要有个根基,有地方安置的,这就是圣人所谓的“求放心”。当然了,也有些人的生命状态本来就是飘着的,比如我
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:以下是草就的段落,还没来得及连缀成文。既然文章都不打算写完了,那么这些段落,也便只得散放着罢了
要说潇洒哥,需先看古之名士
其实既然刚才谈了李白,那么不提庄子,这不是老朽的风格,庄子和李白是很多人心目里中国历史上最能代表浪漫和潇洒的两个人物形象
有潇洒之名的人不计其数,而嵇康是唯一我觉得值得尊仰的。其实我对魏晋风度一向颇有微词,不过是些除了相貌毫无优点的娘娘腔和写一些“抓虱子时我们在谈什么”之类的扯淡话拼凑文章,再加上安仁拜尘种种的丑闻而已,就算最负盛名的竹林七贤,其实也并不是每个人都当得起这个“贤”字,比如山涛向秀王戎之流。但是唯独嵇康,则是毫无争议的贤人,经得起最严格最苛刻的挑剔
临终刑场上,嵇康居然要弹奏一曲,实在是让人感叹。于生死存亡关头,竟然气定神闲的要弹古琴,我想当时的场景一定是很苍凉的,也许无人焚香,但是空气里自然弥漫着优雅。嵇康接过琴,缓缓坐定,手起指落,广陵散裂帛穿云,金声玉应。我听过一些现代的所谓古琴大家演奏的所谓广陵散,如泣如诉而缠绵悱恻,我想那一定不是广陵散应有的味道。一个讲述白虹贯日的曲子,不可能是柔弱的流顺的。古琴以舒缓飘逸为美,但也许广陵散就是唯一打破这种和谐的篇章,因为那是一个充满杀机的故事。这个歌颂英雄的故事,由铁骨铮铮的汉子来演奏,却用的是柔顺委婉的古琴,这种不和谐,应当能营造出最完美的艺术效果。曲终琴住,嵇康长叹,广陵绝矣,我想这并不是说,此后此曲失传,而是在说,纵然此曲尤在,奈何再无人有这般的心胸,能走入聂政的内心世界,故虽有曲有琴,却没有这样一双手,这样一片心,世上再无如此豪杰
金圣叹也当得起潇洒二字。金氏临死,刑场上叫来了儿子,要留遗言。只见大文豪手起笔落,刷刷点点,写下一行字笺,交给儿子说,回去慢慢看。读书到此,我总在想,这等文豪,什么样的遗嘱才配得上如此的才华名声?急急往下读,看到小金展开字条,上写:字付大儿看,盐菜与黄豆同食,大有胡桃滋味——哦,还有人说,其实写的是,字谕大儿知悉,花生米与豆腐干同嚼,有火腿滋味。不过这都不重要了
读书到此,我想笑,笑不出,想哭,又觉得没有理由。何等的心胸,何等的潇洒,竟然在临死关头,留下了这么一句充满生活情趣的废话,仿佛是在书斋里喝着茶写小品笔记一般
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:虽是草稿,但是按照惯例,第一个也要交给书伴中的大才女ljer点评。哪知道她看完,只悠悠的说了一句话:我还是喜欢你的最后两恨
呵呵,知己如此,所谓最后两恨,不过是:
九恨我不见古人,十恨古人不见我

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